Random Thoughts

Ever had the feeling where you just wished someone loved you? I mean, of course you have your friends and family. But I am talking about a different love. The kind of love shared between two people who really care about each other. Lately.. I have been thinking a lot about this kind of stuff. Why? I really don't know. Just at times, I am sitting there... and I just have a wish that I had someone who I could hold in my arms, someone that would just be okay with sitting there in the silence. Being able to just be with each other. I know I am young, and I know that I will be serving a mission so I shouldn't be worrying about this kind of stuff.... But who doesn't? Love is something everybody is looking for. Some have already found it. At times, I wish I was just like that. I thought I knew love. I thought I had that kind of love once. But that love... well, it wasn't what I thought it was, I guess. And since that time, I have been feeling quite lonely. Seeing so many people every day sharing this love sometimes just breaks my heart. I know I just should not worry at all about this. I will find it. There are just days where you wish you could find it at that VERY moment. 

But, it is a time to be thankful. Thankful for what I do have. First off, I am so very thankful for friendship. Through this walk of life, I have met many great people. Some have gone, some have lingered around, but others have stayed put and been there with me. I am so grateful to have such amazing friends who have been supportive and given me the happiness that I feel everyday. The power of friendship is one of the best things you can ever feel in life. I have some of the most amazing people in my life who can make me laugh, no matter what the situation is. No matter how sad I may be. This is what shows who your true and best friends are. And I am so grateful to EVERY single person who has stayed with me and been there for me in every trial and every burden. I love every single one of you! 

I am also very thankful for a loving and caring family. Being away from where I grew up has truly shown me how thankful I am for the family that I have. They have been there for me, through the thick and thin. No matter what mistakes I make, no matter how stubborn I may be, they are there for me. They forgive easily. And they just care for me. I love them so much. Nothing with EVER take away that love. The powers that try to break down family in these days will NOT interfere with the love I have for my family members. I will not let it. Because without my family, I would be nothing. There is no way I would be where I am today without my sisters, brothers, and parents. I am so grateful for my parents and what they have done for me. I have made many mistakes. Some that could break a bond between a person and their parents. But, this didn't affect our relationship. Forgiveness is such a huge characteristic of both of my parents, and I am so grateful for that. I love my parents! Everything they have taught me has led me to such success in my life and continues to bless me every day. 

I am very thankful for the gospel of Jesus Christ and the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. Every day I learn more and more, and it continues to bless my life. I know without a doubt that the LDS Church is true and that every teaching within this gospel comes from the Lord. I am grateful for the Savior, Jesus Christ, and all the sacrifices he made. Without the Atonement that Christ brought forth, I would be no where in life. This Atonement has allowed me to repent for all of the stupid things I have done in my life and continue on in faith. I love this gospel and am very excited to serve the Lord in every way possible, particularly as I am preparing to serve a full-time mission. I would do anything for this gospel. I am so grateful for the blessings I have received as a member of the LDS Church.

I am also very grateful for the Book of Mormon. Although I need to get better at reading this amazing book, I know it to be true. Every time I open the pages of the Book of Mormon, I learn something new, something sticks out to me. I feel a power within my heart that testifies to me that every word that is on the pages of this book are true and a map to direct my life. If I am having a terrible day, I can open the Book of Mormon and feel ten times better. I find it amazing that a single scripture can change your life, your mood. They can be a testament to you, or they can just be an esteem booster when needed. I am so grateful to have the Book of Mormon in my life and that it is available to me whenever I need it. 

I am very grateful for education. There are so many people who take their education for granted. They feel like school is a waste of time. But I would have to disagree with this. I love learning. I am so grateful for the opportunity I have to be furthering my education here at Utah State University. I love USU. It is such an amazing place to be. The people here are so friendly, and the professors are great. I am grateful for my professors and all the time they take to give me the best education they possibly can. They take time out of their day to further my education and I am very grateful for this. Education is so important. I would be one stupid kid today if I didn't take every chance I could to further my knowledge. 

At the moment, I am VERY grateful for music. I love that songs can describe exactly how you are feeling. And that they can mean so much to you in a time of need. Or they can just be something for you to go crazy to, to dance to and just have fun. Music is the best thing ever! I have no idea what I would do without it!

I could go on FOREVER and EVER with things I am grateful for, but I will bore you no further. I just thought I would write a few things that I am grateful for and that I will always hold onto in my life. I hope everyone is doing just great and that your lives are amazing. I love you all, thanks for taking time out of your day to read my blog!

Halloween (: It was a great night with my best friends! (:

SO thankful for this person right here! I have no idea what I would do without her. Love you Britt!

Went to the BYU vs. Utah State men's basketball game last night. Waited 5 hours in line to get in, but it was so worth it! EPIC game! You haven't experienced anything in life if you have not experienced the SPECTRUM. USU fans are definitely the most devoted, and the LOUDEST. Such an amazing atmosphere. 

Final Score. Yep, that's right. UTAH STATE IS AWESOME. (: